The older I get, the more I feel my life is constantly changing, from habits to the way I think about everything. Indeed, I chose the title about why being adults isn't as happy as being kids, but that doesn't mean I never feel happiness in my adult life. I still find it in small, meaningful things that people might never notice. However, there's nothing better than childhood moments. Do you agree?
Nowadays, I often watch nostalgic moments on social media, listen to nostalgic music, and read my old books just to relive the golden moments I once had. Honestly, I realize that life must go on, and we can't be stuck in our younger years. But the more I realize this, the more I feel emptiness and complicated things in this adult life because people my age pursue worldly life more than finding the true meaning of life. I feel like, is there no one who has the same goal as me here on earth? After searching on the internet, I found some reasons that are relatable to me. Here they are!
1. Overthinking
When we were children, we knew fewer things. The older we get, the more we feel everything that's happening around us, and it makes us overthink.
Currently, we know conflicts and war (genocide, more precisely) in the Middle East are getting worse, with many people dying every day, and no one can handle it, even those who have the power to do so. It really hurts sensitive people like me. Honestly, because of this sensitivity, I just want to hear something good about people and other living things on earth, but this little heart has to feel sadness from many things. Why?
When we were kids, we would never think of it as deeply as we do now as adults. Am I right? I mean, why can't I see peace on earth that lets all living things just live and breathe? Truly, I'm running out of words, and sometimes it makes me want to move to other planets, hoping a better place exists because I feel pessimistic about anything good on earth. 🥲
2. Too Many Expectations
The older we get, the more expectations people around us have toward us. Although when we were kids, our parents also expected us to get the first rank in school, for example, fulfilling their expectations was way easier because all we had to do was study hard.
It's very different now because we have our values that we want to hold, yet sometimes, or even oftentimes, reality hits us hard.
As a person who loves studying, I often talk about my dream to pursue higher degrees. However, some people out there who have earned them oftentimes disappoint me. For example, those who misuse their degrees to justify wrongs like corruption. It really hurts me. Whoa.
Moreover, many people also have high expectations of those with higher degrees to live fancily and spend on anything at one time, as though living modestly is illegal here. Little do they know that not all people pursue higher degrees to embrace those things. Some people just want to share the knowledge they achieve with those who need it, right?
3. Just Different, That's It
The last reason is that adult life is very different, that's it. When we were kids, it was difficult to access information and many other things, yet the struggle was real.
I just miss how I studied together with friends in the evening and was afraid of going home because it was so dark. However, I could laugh at that time. 😅 Now I can find anything on the internet to feed my curiosity easily without any struggles. Time flies so fast.
If I could choose, I would choose to be eternal as a kid, just like vampires do, but God created me as a human to grow, so I should be thankful. 😇 Although adult life feels so tiring for me personally, I'll go through it as much as I can. For me, it's okay to recall childhood moments when we miss them to reflect on what we wanted to aspire to at that time. No one knows, after recalling those moments, we might realize something good to do. I'll also keep praying for peace on earth no matter how many bitter realities that hit me. 😇
