Hola amigos, Let me share what I've been thinking recently with the hope of feeling a bit of relief.
So, it's 2024, and I remember the promise I made to myself last year to continue my studies. Unfortunately, the path isn't easy.
Since last year, I've been figuring out which subject to pursue, whether economics or digital marketing. Economics is related to my undergraduate degree, yet my work requires knowledge of digital marketing.
Long story short, after researching both subjects, I chose digital marketing because the digital era is evolving swiftly, and I love it for its need for creativity, which aligns with my passion.
However, what's more difficult?
In Indonesia, I haven't found a university which has an MS degree in digital marketing that's covered by the Scholarship (LPDP). The country that provides this subject is Australia.
Unfortunately, my parents don't permit me to go there. They always say, "No, you're a girl; what if you get ill there and nobody takes care of you? It's two years, not two weeks or two months! Is there no campus in Indonesia in Java island to study the same subject? No means no!"
On the other side, I can't leave them because my siblings live in another city. I don't know; seeing and taking care of my parents, who are getting older, is my childhood dream because we don't know how long we can be with them, As long as they're still with us, I want to be with them.
However, deep down, I want to test my abilities by pursuing a Master's degree in the subject I want to pursue.
Coincidentally, I have a friend (my bestie since high school) who is also pursuing the same dream of continuing studies. I've started the preparation, including documents, scholastic tryouts, essays, interview preparation, etc., with her. But once again, what can I do if my parents don't permit me?
A Hadith from al-Tirmidhi, 1821, states: "The pleasure of the Lord lies in the pleasure of the parent. The anger of the Lord lies in the anger of the parent"
is really important for me to reflect on.
No matter how big my dream is, if my parents don't agree with my decision, which seems unfair (from my point of view) yet for my own good, I can't continue.
To be honest, sometimes I feel stuck in this situation, while my heart's desire is to pursue my dream. But seeing my parents happy if I'm with them makes that feeling of being stuck fade away.
As a substitute to fulfill the emptiness in my learning agenda, I often look up many courses, books, and everything related to digital marketing. At least, it's for preparation if someday I can continue my studies at my parents' pleasure. I don't know when it will happen, but I believe that every good intention will find its own way.
To wrap this up, I'd like to say thank you for reading this. If you're feeling the same way, I hope you're still optimistic about pursuing your dreams in a good way without going against your parents. As I said before, good intentions will find their own way—it's just a matter of time. 😊
